And I love reading things like this. My Taglish was pretty broken, but this is what I experienced growing up. What say you?

34 signs you grew up Filipino

Musings on Identity

When the three of us first set out to write this blog, we were all going through different phases of understanding our Filipina-ness. I had just returned from a long trip abroad living 10 months in Taiwan, with a short pilgrimage in the Philippines to visit my parents' home villages. For almost three decades, I considered myself an American. The trip to Ilocos Sur and the subsequent reunion with my uncle and his family made me realize how "American" I was and how Filipinos viewed me as not truly one of them. This peaked my interest in identity and reconciling my strong ties to my home in the U.S. and my growing interest in my cultural heritage.

Issues of identity were fresh on my mind back in 2010. I spent a year in a doctoral program breaking apart Japanese Issei and Nisei identity in California and their views of being American during World War II. My time in Taiwan exposed me to Taiwanese views of being Taiwanese as opposed to being Chinese. My return to California further peaked my curiosity on how my many first/second generation Filipino friends and family reconciled the expectations of their parents and grandparents, with their comfortable lifestyles in the United States.

It would seem only natural that Bev, Grace-Sonia, and I would begin writing about our different views on our cultural roots. 

My interest in identity, particularly duality, was renewed by the birth of my son. Culturally and ethnically Mexipino (Mexican-Filipino), he is decidedly very American. In a century where bi-racial coupling is commonplace, more and more children will grow up asking more complex questions than the ones we three bebots will ever pose. 

Will I be able to teach enough Filipino culture to my son to understand some of my customs and superstitions? Will he learn both Ilocano and Spanish as his home languages? Better yet, will he even care? 

Ringing in 2014 with new posts!

It's been a while since we three have posted. We've gone our separate ways, no longer working together -- all successful in our new endeavors.

I lived what our parents believed to be the American dream. My husband and I bought a house, paid off our car, had a baby, and got a dog. I have also lived the American reality - sold the house, split up with the husband, and am raising a baby as a single mom. But you know what? I'm loving every moment of it. I enjoyed every step that we took to get here. I'm doing more than what my parents or grandparents ever dreamed of doing.

So… what's in store for the new year for us three bebots? We hope to revive our musings and post more frequently. We still have many questions, experiences, and stories about being Filipina-Americans. I, in particular, have lots to say as my son will be growing up in a world of multiplicity - second generation Filipino/Mexican-American. In generations to come, what color will that become? Will brown be the default identifier for mixed heritage children as white is for those of European backgrounds?

I hope I've enticed you to follow us once again and we look forward to your comments and feedback.

Happy 2014!